Zandolit

The Struggle

"Therefore as God's chosen people Holy and dearly loved, clothe yoursleves with commpassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievences you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity. Colossians 3:12-14

It is hard to be motivated by love. How many things I do are truly motivated by love? I think more than when I was 20, but still I can decieve myself. I know because I get that uneasy feeling in my heart. I have come to realize that that feeling is the Holy Spirit feeling grieved. I hate that, I just want to live with peace in my heart, I hate the feeling of having gone out of God's will. It's like when Josh and I liked each other but we weren't dating and I would say something too forward, or do something to throw myself in his way, then I would feel so awful about it because I wanted to wait on the Lord. I would pray, Lord can you please fix this? Ofcouse he did but we didn't get married for three years and we had to work through our feelings about those three years for quite a while afterward. All that to say that when we don't listen to the Holy Spirit God can bring it back around but there are still consequences. These verses remind me that I need to operate out of compassion (For Emma when she pees her pants or unrolls all the toilet paper), Kindness (when Josh is tired and wants a specific meal for dinner), humility (when I think I know what's best for other people), gentleness (when telling people the truth) and patience (when things are not going the way I want). This passage tells me how to relate to others. I want to. Help me to walk in the Spirit Lord.

posted by Liz @ 4:33 PM