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Hanging above my computer are two pictures of Josh and I taken on our honeymoon just over three years ago. We look so young and fresh and in love. Not that we aren't young, fresh and in love now, just a little more sleep deprived perhaps. Janice Ebel's wedding is a week from Saturday and I am so excited for her. I love weddings. I'm especially excited because I've been blessed to watch some of their relationship. It is so wonderful to watch two people commit their lives to each other. Sometimes I miss being the bride though. Now I'm the mom. I was realizing the other day that I now have everything I wanted out of life. My dream was to be a wife and mother. I don't mean to complain about where I am, I have the best husband that ever was (no offense to the rest of you ladies) and my children are adorable, smart and "spirited." I am satisfied with my life and I know that I will do other things besides this down the road. I hope to teach again someday, I think we'll have more children in a few years, I imagine we'll go back overseas too. It strikes me now though that I was unwise to have wasted some of my single years dreaming about my married years. Ofcourse when you are single you don't realize what a blessing it is to be responsible for only yourself, but believe me it is a unique and wonderful period in your life. I am thankful that God led me to go to Haiti alone. I felt at the time that it would be a life shaping experience and it was. I'm thankful that I will have that experience to share with my Emma when she is older. I guess my thesis is be thankful for where you are. Last week I would have laughed or cried at those word with a somewhat bitter spirit because Emma's naughtiness was getting me down. It's hard sometimes when older people say to me "Enjoy these years because they'll be gone before you know it," just like it was hard when I was single to hear people say "enjoy being single, before you know it the time will be gone." It's true though, we all know in our hearts that it's true. I asked my mom the other day if she missed having kids at home and she said, "well, I miss you, but I have other things I do now." There are so many phases of life and so many ways to serve the Lord in them that we would be fools to waste our time living in the past or the future. So thank you Lord for my kiddos, thank you that although I'm not a bride anymore I'm still my husband's crown. Help me to make the most of this time.

Also to the xanga people (Lori and Brietta) I'm reading your sites, but I can't comment. Just know that I'm thinking of you both and am blessed to keep up with your lives. Brietta, I am coming up in early May and we should get together at Jackie's for a play date. Jackie, I'm totally inviting people to your house, but I love you and I'll bring food:)

posted by Liz @ 10:54 AM